Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Celup

This is Daniel when you saw him last.



So cute.

This is Daniel now.



And the rest of the pack of tiny tiny humans.


You haven't met this one. Her name is Liya.


And Lilian.


And Ethan. Hunt. I am not kidding. His name is Ethan Senn Hunt.


And this is Ethan as Robocop.

I really love me some celups.

Monday, February 22, 2010

What Else Is There To Do?

There isn't really much now, is there? Not when you've pulled the plug from the bath and tell the water that it can go anywhere it likes. Try it, you'll see.

And honestly, why do people tap their noses when they want you to keep a secret?

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Every time I hear this song, it reminds me of how sad and tragic the ending was, what with the self-sacrifice and love is justice and the tortured soul facades, but there aren't other ways it could have ended without it being a bucket load of crap.


Nakagawa Koutarou - Madder Sky

Sunday, February 21, 2010

I Think I Feel Much Cleaner Now

Just when I thought I've gotten rid of all the junk sitting in various corners of my room, there were yet thirteen bags full I've managed to collect and tightly fastened into non-recyclable shopping bags. Ah, what fate lies in wait for them.



Do you remember them book bands? You know, don't you? I found my trusty neon thingamajig in a box within a box and God help the nostalgia, this book band pre-dates everything else in my room! (It's funny, Malaysians. We use butter tubs as lunch boxes, plastic shopping bags as bin liners, old tees as doormats - if that's what you call them feet-wipes your mother puts outside the toilet, and shoe boxes as storage containers.)

Anyway, book bands are such nifty little things, aren't they? They keep your exercise books in check. They also kept me in check - when I was a mischief and my mother would grab whatever was in reach and gave me a nice spanking, and said book band wasn't very nifty then.

I threw away many things. All held memories. My first ever soft toy, for example. It was a green bunny with a yellow bow-tie and it was RM13, I think. From Daya (or was it Jaya) Supermarket in SS2. One which I very affectionately called Whiskers. Whiskers unfortunately has grown much darker than I remembered it. He was black.



Then there was one stray piece of evidence that I hadn't done very well for myself at school. History answer sheet. Score? 41 of 60. So much for being in the top students class. Clearly everyone else trumped me so badly that I felt the need to hide it in that box within a box.

And finally, the fads of school.

The straw roses (and I don't mean dry grass, I meant the cylindrical tube you drink your overly sweetened carbonated beverage with).

And the 'friendship bands' that cost you tons of patience to braid, not to mention a fortune on DMC threads and in those days, you just had to have every color conceivable, or at least one from each color group anyway. And there was no such thing as too many groups. There had to be light pink group and dark pink group.

Oh, and fancy 'autograph books' with like Hello Kitty's on it that said 'Nama' and 'Alamat' on every page for all your friends to write in and sign their most cursive signatures in a host of colors. Again, there had to be light pink and dark pink.

And lastly, a school memento that my mother treasured so dearly.

It was the annual prize giving event itinerary booklets from primary school. Every year, for academic excellence (derived solely from promises of sets of Garfield stationeries, video game consoles, Transformers action figures and Tamiya cars), I went up the stage. (In secondary school I was smarter, I had learned that the bribes my mother offered were fake so I slacked off). I, however, decide that I want to keep my bragging rights. I was awesome in primary school, OK. I'd get perfect scores in English and Math, and be top of the class and some years when I was promised much bigger things, I'd be top of my year. And that had resulted in my name being printed in bold in those booklets. And they have turned brown and disgusting, with so many unidentifiable stains on them, crime scene investigators would have a field day with them.

Yet, my mother insists on keeping them still.

In any case, my room has considerably less stuff now and I feel clean.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Thy Hobby Amazes Me

I like someone who doesn't just like to read a bunch of books and get into rows about who's the berk and who's the prat. I fancy this much.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Falling Star

You know what they say, don't you? Falling stars are good luck.

On the contrary, it'd be really bad if you really did catch a falling star. Nevermind that it probably won't fit in your pocket. Just a thought.

I wonder if this could be my falling star moment, however fleeting it may be.

No, don't follow me. I don't want you to. Here's to us. And all your lies.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Code Geass



Both seasons equally steam but with a terribly sad ending. A lot of guns and bad ass action figure fighting in between, and the art is very Tsubasa Chronicles, but with a little something for the grown-ups.




Kuroishi Hitomi - Continued Story

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Funny You Should Be So Calm

Unless this isn't your first time committing a crime, I really don't see how you can be so composed all the time. Do you always keep your cool like that?

I'd mail your 26 cents over to you if I could, if one senseless sentence would mean anything at all. Is it much to do with an infatuation - debauchery of epic proportions are going on here isn't it?

What I really want to know is, why was it so paramount for you to lie to me? You know what you did is like selling a car with a full tank of petrol. I just need to know why you lied. What sort of cupidity drove you to lie?

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Sorry Doesn't Mean A Thing

If you say you're sorry ten times over and over, the least you're doing is summoning up courage times ten and showing that you mean it right?

But when you're this far away, all you're doing is copying and pasting that one word. And it loses its meaning right after the first 'sorry', doesn't it?

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Next Time

I promise we'll do it properly, okay?

I promise.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

It's Like Ice Cream

On a warm day.

Your flailing attempts at preserving your pride. You're losing, aren't you? Kiss me goodbye tonight, I will return some of your pride.

Friday, February 12, 2010

One Of Those Moments

It's safe now.

I've burned you in. I cannot explain you away anymore.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Quixote

My goodness, people. It's pronounced 'key-yoh-tee' not 'quick-sot'.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

An Old Story From A Distant Past

Today was a good day. Not the happy sunshine and rainbows kind but still, no crisis counts for something no? I came home to clear my bookmarks and I found something that I had forgotten. Shoved so far into the back of my head, I think it could have felt lonely.

I am that kind of person who thinks about her exes all the time. It didn't matter how they treated me, or how I treated them or who had ended it. But there was this special one, who made me feel the crappiest. The truth is, I don't know why he was any exception. Maybe because he gave me a bouquet of lolly pops. Oh, you didn't know? Lolly pops were my thing some time ago. Maybe because he let me numb his feet by sleeping on them. Maybe I was just that shallow. I fell for all the little lies and empty promises and easy words.

But only him, I didn't occasionally bring up in my mind. True. Why, indeed.

Hiding that memory was the only way to recover. Burying it with all sorts of junk over the years and making sure nothing would accidentally leak out.

Do you remember Lynn? Do you remember that girl I used to talk about. She would never order her own meal but will always leech off everyone else's, then proceed to regurgitate. Today I stumbled in all the right places and it reminded me of all the wrongs you have done to me. I was stupid. And you were prized. In all your sob stories, you were precious. To many. And I wasn't exclusive.

Today I remembered how you've scarred me by telling all who were close to me about my impending heartbreak. Today I remembered what thick skin you have when you warned them to hide this from me. Today I remembered and maybe felt again like deja vu the helplessness of losing you, losing us. Today I remembered that I told myself it was silly to have put so much heart into one relationship after you left me for dead. And today is also the day that I remember that my life isn't over after all.

Because today, I've found someone. Someone close to my heart. Someone worth the trouble. Someone I've known for several years and whom I cannot imagine tearing me apart and leaving me to mend myself back into one. Someone who will solder the cracks shut. Someone who drapes me all over so that the pieces I've been gluing together, the holes I've been trying to fill aren't exposed for the world to see.

And today, you might as well be dead to me :)

Monday, February 1, 2010

Roadkill McSlaughter

He is my joy.

Last night I picked him up and set him in front of the computer while I played Gemcraft.

He went near the mouse and I accidentally used Roadkill to move the cursor. No, he didn't poke me : )

But later he fell asleep in right next to my arm, to this song.


Clint Michigan - Hawthorne to Hennepin